This is not a blog. This is not a blog that is ready for anybody to read it, anyway. It is under construction. I’m editing and adding and deleting posts trying to find the feeling for what I’m trying to say. That and figuring out technical, graphical and administrative details. You are welcome to hang out while I work. This blog will officially launch well, sometime soon, for sure in 2010. – Carol Ramsey
February 5, 2010
Wild, Wild Night at the Cactus (For Now)
Posted by Carol under Austin Stories | Tags: asylum street spankers, cactus cafe, Texas Union, university of texas |Leave a Comment
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You should have seen us, Blue Eyes and I, out on a Friday night past 9. Our neighbors invited us out, they have little kids too and all of us had babysitters. Our dancing plans didn’t work out, so we ended up at the Cactus Cafe to see the Asylum Street Spankers. I liked their songs, but I liked their performance even better. They were fun and funny and had a great energy about them. Wammo told great stories about lunch boxes and beer. Christina Marrs’ last song was naughty, more naughty than I get at my naughtiest and she was on stage with her clothes on.
I loved the Catcus Cafe too, it is an intimate setting, you can see the expressions on the faces of the musicians, you can hear every instrument separate from the others, it feels like you are in your living room. And besides that, it is the perfect place for the 40+ year old music fan, with comfortable chairs, shows that don’t start too late and good coffee in case you are worn out from the kids.
A few days later, I saw the story that the University of Texas is considering closing the Cactus Cafe to save money on their budget. Wow, this got me to thinking.
So many great people have played there so many times, Lyle Lovett, Townes Van Zandt, Steve Earle, Shawn Colvin, Kelly Willis, well, I could go on and on. A venue with that much history feels more like a person, like a good friend who always remembers your birthday or a favorite park where your kids played when they were young. It would be sad to lose the Cactus Cafe.
Well, some say, it isn’t the top objective of the university to provide live music to the 40+ crowd. You have to be drinking age to get in, so most students can’t use it at all. Well, not all UT students are eighteen, I was twenty-six when I was a student there, and how about those graduate students? Older students are people too! And as John Kelso pointed out here, it isn’t like this is the only place on campus that attracts non-students, the 100,000 capacity Royal-Memorial Stadium isn’t built just for students.
Well, I say, who is running this place? It is full every time I go and the cover charge is pretty high and they sell drinks, so how exactly does this place not make money? Maybe some students from the UT’s business school could get together with students from KVRX, the college radio station, and help out. There should be a way to make money from this.
There is an effort now to raise private funds to keep the Cactus Cafe open or maybe relocating it to the Alumni Center, more info is here. I hope these efforts work, because Blue Eyes and I might get out after 9 more when our kids are a little older, and it would be nice to have a place to go with comfortable chairs, early shows and a nice cup of coffee.
February 1, 2010
The Long Way Home
Posted by Carol under Kid Stories, Little Bits, Mom Stories | Tags: long way home, the long way home |Leave a Comment
Do you ever drive the long way home, just because the kids are in their car seats, quiet, content to look out the window, unable to make a mess, not asking for anything and giving you time to think about something or nothing at all? Today it took twenty minutes to drive home from the day care which is 2 miles from my house. Up and down Burnet and Lamar. Completing a few complete circles. Sparkles started to catch on, though, and ask where we were going. I won’t be able to use this trick for long. For today, I enjoyed the long way home.
January 31, 2010
Dilbert, the Vachons and My Next Idea
Posted by Carol under Mom Stories | Tags: vachon, dilbert, scott adams, Equally Shared Parenting, work life balance, marc vachon, amy vachon |Leave a Comment
I had coffee with my friend Katie Malinski, a parenting coach and therapist, and she told me a story about Scott Adams, the creator of Dilbert. He said that he got emails all the time from people who said “Man, I had that idea! A cartoon about a nerd and the odd quirks of corporate life!” Scott Adams response was something like “Well, after you have the idea, you kind of have to do the work.”
Scott Adams is talking to me when he says that. I have ideas all the time but mostly I just tell them to my friend Katie. I’m writing on this blog now, but I’ve only told six people about it, which is kind of like wearing a rain coat in the shower. I’ve been telling her for years that a family with Mom and Dad both working 40 hours a week doesn’t make sense. The whole family used to work 40 hours and now they work 80 hours? How do you spend time with the kids beyond meals and sleeping and how do you keep up with a house?
30 hours. That was my answer. It should be a common and accepted practice for people to choose between a 30 hour and 40 hour work week, with reduced pay for the 30 hours. Then, when a family has young kids, Mom and Dad can make it all work.
So, I am glad to see that Amy and Marc Vachon have done more than just tell their girlfriend about their idea. They have lived their idea for many years, with Amy and Marc working 32 hours a week. Then they wrote a book and started a blog. Now they are experts on Equally Shared Parenting. Their idea is more than the reduced work week for both Mom and Dad, it is also about equal sharing of the work at home.
I’m glad the Vachons have done the work. I’m glad they were written up in the New York Times and appeared on The Today Show. I think it is a powerful idea and it is something that would work for a lot of families. I’m working part-time now and I love it. I spend part of my day using my grown-up brain and have a lot of my day just for the kids. I like our trips to the park and the museum and I like that they aren’t in day care for nine hours every day.
It is harder for the Dads. I think it is harder for them to make the case to their boss for a part-time week and still be considered an A-player and committed to the company.
I think it is harder still for women to let go. To let the men really, really own the parenting just as much. To let them do it differently. To not assume, because their fathers didn’t do it or men don’t usually do it, that they can’t. The same that we want men to not assume we can’t be CEOs or Presidents.
With books like the Vachon’s and more people asking about it and trying it out, hopefully it will be more common in the future, for companies to support the option, for Dads being willing to take it on and for Moms being willing to letting it happen.
And about those ideas – I’m going to do the work for one of them, I just haven’t figured out which one yet. I’ll let you know when I figure it out.
January 30, 2010
Looking Like a Squirrel Preparing for Winter
Posted by Carol under Little Bits, Mom Stories | Tags: 2-year-old, Rice Krispie Treat |Leave a Comment
Do you ever find a Rice Krispie Treat in the bread box that you forgot about and it isn’t too old but it is definitely the last one and you know your 2-year-old would really like it, but you love Rice Krispie Treats too, so you eat it? Then your two-year-old walks into the kitchen and you turn to the side while you fit the whole thing in your mouth, then you eat it slowly while she plays at her kid-size kichen? Yeah, me too.
January 28, 2010
What Am I, the Paparazzi?
Posted by Carol under Austin Stories, Kid Stories | Tags: austin politics, donna howard, lady bird lake, red wagon |1 Comment
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Sparkles, Buttercup and I were walking around Lady Bird Lake in their new red wagon when we run into Donna Howard, one of Texas’ state representatives. (Oh, wait, before you think I must have lost Buttercup, she is sleeping in her wrap when I take this picture.) Donna Howard is another reason why I love Austin. She is a politician, sure, but have you heard her talk about policy? Oh, my, she has really studied the issues and she is articulate and smart. Think Sarah Palin, but opposite, because of her personality, but because she is a Democrat too.
I said “Hello!”, then got to thinking. I have been so strange about this blog – Am I doing it or not? What is the theme again? What are the kids names or will I just pick new names every time I post like I have been doing from the beginning? (Update – I finally decided on names and updated the posts.)
Well, I decide that in that moment I was feeling confident about this blog so I ask Donna Howard if I could take a picture of her for my blog. And pretty soon after I said it, I changed my mind. I mean, I went ahead and took a picture, but I knew then I wouldn’t use it, because how annoying! What if someone stopped me on the way to the gym and asked me if they could take a picture, in my work out clothes, no makeup, hair in a pony tail. Oh, my, I wouldn’t be that into it.
Now, I’m not saying that Donna Howard didn’t look amazing, because she did. It just felt weird to take her personal time and energy when she was just wanting to get in a work out. I should have just said “Thanks”. Working in politics can’t be easy and I would like to say “Thanks” to the people in Austin who take this on.
We had a nice walk at the lake. The red wagon has been great, because Sparkles is less likely to want to climb something with her broken collarbone and Buttercup isn’t quite walking yet. And, another thing I love about Austin, is that we are doing this without jackets in February. I LOVE that.
January 24, 2010
Sleeping In (Well, Sort Of)
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I’ve been thinking and writing lately about how things have changed now that I have little kids and this morning it came up again. Both of my little girls slept through the night and all the way until 7am. 7am. That is a magic time, because it is later than 5:30 or 6:00 when they sometimes get up. I would have never thought this before these little kids, that 7am was sleeping in…
January 23, 2010
Sing Alongs, Good Coffee and Spoon
Posted by Carol under Austin Stories, Mom Stories | Tags: burning down the house, christmas carols, coffee, friday night, pacha, Spoon, spoon transference, talking heads, transference |Leave a Comment
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We are driving down the street and Sparkles is banging her arms on her car seat arm rests and yelling “Burning Down the House!” She is smiling and giggling and singing all at the same time.
During the holidays, Sparkles started singing for real, Jingle Bells and Frosty the Snowman were favorite. She has her own playlist on my iPhone now, with some classics by the Beatles, Elvis and the Talking Heads. (You might not think the Talking Heads belongs in that list, but in my family it does.) Then there are the show tunes, because she LOVES the show tunes, with a few songs from The Little Mermaid, Snow White and Chitty Chitty Bang Bang. Yes, my play lists have changed.
My Friday nights have changed too. When I was younger, my Friday nights started late, involved a lot of people who I didn’t know and required wine or beer or margaritas, something to drink that signaled a celebration, it was Friday after all!
On this Friday night, I’m at Pacha Coffee House on Burnet near 45th by myself. I had a quiche and iced tea for dinner. Every now and then I stop typing and notice the quiet. (Well, music is playing softly and there is a hum coming from the refrigerated case with food, but no one is squealing or giggling or screaming or crying, so quiet, relatively speaking.) I’ll stay a couple of hours and get home by 9:00 so I can catch up on sleep.
This is my night off, Blue Eyes has the girls. If my younger self were reading this, she might be worried and sad, but I’m not worried or sad. The feeling of this night, the quiet, the good food, being able to write, it feels really good.
I like Pacha for times like this. The coffee is pretty good, I like the coffee, but I LOVE the food, especially for breakfast. Their breakfast tacos are made to order with fresh, organic ingredients. Yummmmm. It is intimate too, there are regulars who know each other, it feels like some of them have been having coffee together at Pacha for a hundred years.
But, I think I will wrap up early here and head to Waterloo to get Spoon’s new album Transference, because things have changed, but they haven’t changed THAT much and there is room for me and Blue Eyes and the kids in what I do. Maybe I will stay up past 10 tonight, for old time’s sake, maybe not, it’s all good here.
January 17, 2010
One Second and Thirteen Inches
Posted by Carol under Austin Stories, Days Like These, Kid Stories, Mom Stories | Tags: broken collarbone, Dell Children's Hospital, emergency room, Heart Hospital |1 Comment
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The top of the mattress on Sparkles’s toddler bed is 13 inches from the floor. The bed is against a wall on one side and has a rail on the other. Her running across the yard, jumping off rocks, walking along anything off the ground that looks like a balance beam and doing aerial stunts with her Dad, all of that seems more dangerous than sleeping in her bed at night, but it took one second for her to fall out of bed last night and break her collarbone.
Here are some highlights of our adventure.
Sparkles was mostly OK as long as she didn’t move her shoulder, but she also tosses and turns a lot in her sleep, so she kept waking up and crying.
I drove to Dell Children’s Hospital first and the parking lot for the emergency room was full and I could see through the windows that it was a standing-room-only night. So I kept on driving the the Heart Hospital near Central Market where Sparkles was the only patient.
The staff didn’t see a lot of children in this hospital, but they did a pretty good job. They gave her crayons and paper when she had to wait and they brought in a portable x-ray instead of bringing her to the big x-ray room, which could have been scary.
The x-ray technician had a small triangle-shaped lead apron, except it wasn’t an apron, just a triangle, and it was to cover Sparkles’s ovaries during the x-ray. I guess it is good that x-ray technicians think ahead that far. It freaked me out a little bit, to think ahead that far, that my little girl has ovaries that might reproduce one day.
Sparkles was brave and sweet, but very quiet with the doctor, she couldn’t describe what hurt or why she was crying. This would have been scary, if this was a complicated case, but when I touched her collarbone she screamed and the x-ray showed it was broken, so it worked out fine.
The communication was harder the other way. I wanted to explain how keeping the wrap on, a really big Ace bandage, sort of, that kept her arm in place against her body, would keep her arm from moving and hurting. But she didn’t understand that, she just didn’t like how the bandage felt. I wanted to tell her her collarbone is broken and it will hurt for a while, but it will get better, but she didn’t understand that either. It just hurt.
I asked the doctor if the bandage was for comfort or if it was needed to help the bone heal, because I know my girl and I know she won’t want to wear it and the doctor doesn’t get why Sparkles wouldn’t wear it. She is an emergency-room heart specialist after all, the trade-off between this emergency room and hours of waiting at the Children’s Hospital. The nurse understands what I’m asking. He says the wrap is for comfort, it isn’t necessary for the bone to heal.
For being in the shortest emergency room line ever, the trip still takes three hours, between waiting for the nurse, then the doctor, then the x-ray technician, then the doctor, then the administrator, then wait for 30 minutes to be sure she doesn’t react to the pain medicine, then drive around for 20 minutes on the way home so she can calm down and fall asleep.
You just can’t know what will happen in one second and 13 inches. I’m glad we didn’t reeaalllly need the Children’s Hospital last night. I’m glad we weren’t upstairs at the Heart Hospital with something serious. I’m glad my husband took care of the kids in the morning and let me sleep. My husband moved the area rug under Sparkle’s toddler bed for extra cushion and I tell her it will be OK. Everything will be OK.
January 14, 2010
The Children’s Museum – A Good Weekend Idea
Posted by Carol under Austin Stories, Kid Stories | Tags: Austin Children's Museum |Leave a Comment
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Friday and Saturday aren’t looking too good in Austin, with cold, wet weather making it hard to get outside. The girls and I got started on the weekend early today and went to the Austin Children’s Museum where it was warm and dry.
Since Buttercup is too little to have a very strong opinion, Sparkles gets to pick where what to do and how long to do it. It is fun, because a lot of her days are organized by her parents, going here or there without her having much of a say. But at the Children’s Museum, she decides. She loves the colored light sticks at the front of the museum. She helped make the picture above. Sometimes I play with her and other times I just watch, imagining her mind at work and wondering what she is thinking.
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Buttercup played too this time, instead of me carrying her in her wrap. She walked on her own, with me holding one of her hands. She could pick things up and play with the balls and books. She is so ready to take it all in.
This was a good day.
January 10, 2010
Just Do It – A Mother’s Letter to Herself
Posted by Carol under Mom Stories | Tags: kids, parenting |Leave a Comment
I think sometimes of writing a letter to myself before I had kids. Here is what I would say today…
Your life will never be the same. You might think you want this and maybe you do, but let me tell you, your life will never be the same.
You might think you know why it would be hard, but you don’t. Sure, there are sleepless nights and crying babies and screaming toddlers and years and years of poopy diapers, but sometimes what is the most different is the little every day details.
Before I had kids, I would wipe down the kitchen table only some times. It didn’t need to be done every day, it isn’t like my husband and I didn’t know how to use a fork and eat over our plates, so unless we ate bread and some crumbs got on the table, I didn’t need to wipe it down.
Now, with a toddler and an infant, let me tell you about wiping down the table. It happens three times a day or more. We can hardly even eat pretzels for a snack without needing to wipe down the table. And it isn’t just that the top of the table needs to be wiped down now, because your toddler gets messy hands and fidgets a lot, so you need to wipe down the sides of the top of the table, the top of the her chair, the sides of the top of her chair and the back of her chair.
Don’t forget you have two small kids. Your infant is learning to eat solids, but she isn’t very coordinated yet, so there are bits of banana and carrot and avocado on her high chair tray, where you might expect it, but also in the chair itself, on the little ledge where her feet sit and all over the floor.
You didn’t used to sweep the floor every night either, but now, between the two of them, there is enough food on the floor for another entire meal, so much you think that getting a dog would actually save you time, so you need to get a sponge and wipe up the soft and sticky things first, then sweep. And I don’t mean a quick sweep, I mean a sweep where you pull the chairs and high chair away from the table first.
It is in the details, how different it is. What used to take a few minutes every few days is now a small part-time job.
So, I say to you, myself-before-I-had-kids, don’t think twice about having kids. Don’t think twice because you might change your mind, especially if you know ahead of time about how much time you will spend wiping down the table.
Well, I say that, but I don’t mean it. For one thing, you won’t always wipe down the table and you will be OK with that. For another, there are the other kinds of details that balance it all out, like when your toddler call you ‘Mommy’ or when feel your infant at your breast first thing in the morning, when it is still dark and quiet, before the rest of the house has woken up. Yes, the difference is in the details, but you will come out way ahead, so just do it. Your life will never be the same and you will be forever grateful.






